The highs and lows of the weight loss challenge

I started to write this blog a week ago but throughout the week I would get home from work and be too tired to do anything. So today I thought I would take the time to sit down and finish this blog. Three weeks ago I shared with you a high ... I tried on a few of my tri suits and some of them were too big. So I decided I needed to order some new tri shorts and a top. I put the order in on the 19th of April and it was delivered to me by the 22nd. I was so excited to try on my new items until I took them out of the box!  I had ordered an XL in the shorts and top and if you don't mind I will preface the next scene by saying I hate trying on tri clothing. I took the shorts out of the box held them up and thought to myself "XL??? I don't think a doll could fit into these, I would love to see what an XS looks like". To make a long story short ... my self esteem came crashing down. I couldn't get the shorts on to save my life.

Now I know after years of doing triathlons and trying on shorts and tops, each clothing company cuts their items differently. So this particular brand isn't made for me ... it isn't made for a barbie doll either but that is besides the point. I know that the clothes I already have fit well and some are too big so I am going to try to remember that. I will also ship these items back and try a few others.

After that not so fun day I was out running errands and ended up near LL Bean. I thought I would run in and check out their flip flops. The flip flops didn't work out but before I exited the store a display of workout pants and tops caught my eye. I brought one size into the dressing room and realized that they were too big. I had to go and get a smaller size...back on a high.

So I am trying very hard to focus on the positive and not focus on the fact that the scale hasn't moved in over a month. I have been very frustrated about that but trying not to let it bother me. However, I know me and if this plateau continues everything I have worked for will begin to go backwards. I would get frustrated and start to not care. I have done too much and have worked t hard to let that happen. So I decided to take advantage of the gym where I work out. I work out in the wellness clinic on campus which is associated with the exercise science department. I met with an exercise specialist last week and we decided to change up my workouts that will kick things up a notch. I am committed because as much as the almighty number on the scale shouldn't affect me or rule me ... they do and I would like to see the numbers go down some more!!

The other numbers that rule my life are my diabetes numbers. My diabetes expert is still concerned about my numbers. The medication, exercise and diet is still not controlling my numbers enough. My body can not break down carbohydrates and it keeps my numbers really high. I have worked very hard at limited my carbohydrates...which are in everything ... but it is not easy, it is a lot of work.

My life has become controlled by numbers!! But I am not ready to give up!!

Some good numbers to report I have not missed a workout since April 26. I have done some sort of movement (swim, bike, run or walk) for the last 15 days. I am feeling good. I find my body hurts more when I miss workouts then when I workout. This coming week is going to be busy but I have already planned my workouts because it is important to me to get them in. I have found that making my workouts a regular part of my routine is what helps the most.

Here's to the highs and the lows!!