Numbers are all around me...

"Belive you can and you're halfway there." - Theodore Roosevelt

So this morning I had my monthly appointment with the diabetes specialist. According to their scale I lost 4 pounds in this past month. According to my scale I am down 2.5 pounds ... either way it's moving in the right direction. However, my daily blood testing numbers are all over the place.  They are not consistent and are definitely not low enough to make everyone happy. My specialist is happy that my weight is going in the right direction and the fact that I do exercise on a daily basis. For example in the last 31 days I have worked out 30 of them. However, that isn't enough when it comes to my blood sugar numbers. She doesn't want to put me on any more medication and I don't want to go on anymore medication. However, my body is not breaking the carbs down.

I write down everything I eat, even if I cheat. I have to in order to compare it my blood sugar numbers. My specialist checks everything I write down and sees that I am in control of my carbohydrates throughout the day but I tend to lose control in the evening around dinner and snack time. It has always been a tough time for me. She has threatened me that if I don't control the numbers she will have to put me on insulin.  The fear that goes along with that is, one of the side effects is weight gain. Now there is an oxymoron for you!!  So of course that is not the route I want to go!!

She has given me three months, to challenge myself and set a goal of eating within my carbohydrate limit per meal and get my numbers down!!! As she explained to me she knows that I am a goal oriented person and that I just need to tell myself to eat within my limits and avoid everything else. As I always say, if it is important to me I will find a way if not I will find an excuse. This evening I saw this quote from Teddy Roosevelt and thought to myself, "will this work for me?"

Tomorrow is the beginning of the next three months ... I go back to her on August 25th and my numbers will be down! In some ways this is a matter of life and death!