Day 4 out of 70

Today was a recovery bike workout, which I completed this morning. I got up and got out the door without any problems this morning. Tomorrow is a run and my plan is to get it done in the AM. 

I submitting section of my dissertation this week so waiting to hear back from my advisor. I keep checking but so far nothing has come back yet. As soon as I get some edits back I will get working on that.

It is currently 9 pm and I need to get my breakfast and lunch together for tomorrow.

It was a long day at work, where I got very little done, but had a lot of frustration. I feel like I will never get all of it done and I need to! The pressure is on...

I also received all my loan paperwork and I need to work my way through all the information.

This weekend I need to figure out when to move money around and how much.

Got get some shit done!!

Day 3 of 70

 Today is day 3 of 70 which will guide me to through four more races. I worked on my school work in the morning and got my workout done this evening. Tomorrow I will workout in the AM and get some school work done. Work is getting a bit stressful and I need to remind myself that I have to save some time for myself. I have been tired lately but no time to sleep in, I have too much to do.

My to do list at work and at home is very long. I often feel there isn't enough time in the day.

Just taking it one day at a time.

I now need to go put my breakfast and lunch together!

Have a great night!

Less than 70 days = 4 more races

 

Day 1 and 2

Last week a woman told me about this challenge she was doing for 75 days starting August 1. The challenge included drinking 100 ounces of water, working out twice a day for 45 minutes each time, reading 10 pages, following a nutritional diet, and taking a progress photo of you every day. The point of this challenge is to practice self discipline.

Although this is not the challenge for me but it had me thinking. Instead of 75 days I have 70 days to complete four more races. I have a 2.5 K open water swim, a Ironman 70.3, a sprint triathlon and a full marathon on day 70; October 9. Over the last 7 months I have not been consistent with my training. I have been training but I have not been in the right head space. As a result I may have completed the workouts but without any passion or focus. Of course I am always working on my diet and nutrition. I have also been sporadic with my school work, I am so close I just need to get it done. And finally I have not been journaling a consistent basis. 

In the past I was very disciplined to get workouts, work, and school work done, I was a machine and made sure it all got done! I need this back in the next 70 days with passion and focus!

So my plan everyday for 70 days...

1. workouts in the AM

2. work

3. at least 1 hour of school in the AM

4. Journal every day for me...I will use my blog to journal but does not mean I will post on social media.

Due to a triathlon yesterday I was very tired so combining day 1 & 2 together...I will continue.

Bring on day 3...

Surprise Yourself!

#Believe

The Summer of Mo - Finish What You Started

Yesterday was Memorial Day. The day we honor those individuals that made the ultimate sacrifice for our country. It was also the unofficial beginning of Summer. Today was June 1^st and I am officially declaring this the "Summer of Mo!" For those of you who don’t know, I am Mo. It is a nickname I have had for almost 50 years. And this is the summer I finish what I started or at least get closer to my finish line. Since I moved back to Massachusetts over 10 months ago, I still don’t feel completely settled and I have been using this as an excuse or a crutch. It’s time to pull up my big girl pants and get things done.

So what do I need to get done or finish what I started so much and I am taking you on my journey during the Summer of Mo. Number one: take care of some debt and get pre-approved for a mortgage so I can try to buy something, in the midst of this real estate craziness. Number two: continue to work hard or maybe a bit harder to get as much done as possible this summer and head towards graduation. Number three: Focus on my workouts because I am just shy of 13 weeks until Ironman 70.3 in Maine and I want to do nothing less than my best! And number four: work on lowing my weight which will help me with number three and my overall physical and mental health. I need to get rid of some extra pounds and be better! In the Summer of Mo I need to finish what I started. 

I was recently listening to Mike Reilly's podcast, Find Your Finish Line. Within his introduction he states that your finish line doesn't have to be at the end of a race but it could be at the end of a day, a week, a month or a year; we all need to finish what you started. As I was listening that line, "finish what you started" rang true for me. I need to finish what I told myself I wanted to do. I need to complete these projects.

I will admit that these four finish lines may not be complete within the next 13 weeks, it is my goal to do as much work as possible that I can at least see the light at the end of the tunnel or the finish line tape! The Summer of Mo may seem selfish but in the end it could be beneficial to everyone. Working towards these goals and finishing what I started; I will be more focused; stronger and happier. I will keep working! I will keep moving!

Stay Positive, Test Negative

 It's been a year, a very long year. As individuals, as a society, we have tried our best to make the best of this year. There have been highs and very low lows throughout the last 365 days. 

For me, and many other athletes, it has been over 365 days since my last endurance race. I completed a half marathon in February, never thinking I wouldn't complete the other races on my calendar. I had goals for 2020 but they were put on hold and out of my control.

Day by day I would continue to train with the hopes that I would be able to stand on a start line again very soon. But that hasn't happened yet and instead of finishing more races I have become a whiner...which I HATE! (I also think my friends and family hate it too).

Recently two more races, in which I registered, were cancelled or postponed. The first was a 70.3 triathlon scheduled for June and the second was a half marathon scheduled for April. I know that cancelling or postponing the race dates is not what the race directors want to do. It is as much out of their hands as it is out of mine but it still makes me feel so deflated. I even found myself silently crying at my desk at work when I read the announcement about the race scheduled for June. Slowly I have lost a bit of my passion...and I need to get it back.

When not training or going to school I work full time as an Assistant Athletic Director for a DII (DI Hockey) athletic program. This past year has been tough on the staff, coaches and more importantly our student-athletes. Every time a competition/game has been cancelled I feel their pain. I understand what they are going through. However, they have continued to train and face this year with strength and style (I have a lot to learn).

As part of my job, I work at our covid testing center. Many of our student-athletes and staff are being tested for covid three times a week. As I hand each individual their test tube for their nasal swab, I send them off with my positive message of "stay positive, test negative". I need to start taking my own advice! 

It's time to pull up my big girl pants, stop whining, and find my passion (or a new passion) again. I need to stay positive and more importantly, test negative! It's time to refocus and find my passion to train for life again! I know I will race again, I just need to train like it!! 

You get by with a little help from your friends!!

 

I know it has been a couple of weeks since my last post but I wanted to thank everyone who responded to me. Your words of encouragement were appreciated and I am thankful for those who shared their own stories and struggles. 

As a result of my last blog post, I hid my scale. I decided I didn't need it anymore. Or I could do without it for a period of time. I started thinking about it after I posted my blog but then hearing from everyone made me think even harder. What finally put me over the edge was one morning when I was putting my running jacket on heading out for a run. 

I bought this jacket two years ago. It's a New Balance winter running jacket and I love it. It is very warm, sometimes too warm for certain days, but I digress. I put that jacket on, looked in the mirror and it fits the same as it did the day I bought it. So the numbers on the scale may be rising but my body isn't changing. I then took a look at my closet, clothes I bought three years ago I am still wearing, so I decided at that moment my scale needed "a time out".

Last week I had a "new patient" doctor's appointment. Since moving and getting new health insurance I felt it was time to find a new doctor. Of course I hate these appointments, it's like a first date that you don't want to be on! You have to share, with this total stranger, every medical condition and surgery you have ever had. And I have found through the years that when I share that I am a marathoner and a triathlete, the number of hours and days that I train the nurses and doctors always give me a look like they don't believe me.

I am happy to share that this last first date, oh I mean appointment, went much better than I could have hoped for. We talked a lot about my past conditions, surgeries, and my struggle with the scale. I shared that I workout/train religiously and I record my food every day. I didn't get any strange looks and I think they believed me. The one piece of advice the doctor shared was that I needed to increase my calorie intake!

This made me laugh, which I did to myself, but there is a reason why I laughed. As soon as the appointment was done I called my friend Mary Lou. ML is a dietician and a dear friend who has been telling me for years that I was not eating enough. So taking the advice of the doctor and ML, I will be increasing my calorie intake to see how my body reacts. 

I head back to the doctors in three months and at that time we all know they will put me back on their scale to get all the "important" numbers and we will see how this all goes. As I have shared before, for the past 10 weeks I have committed to a strength training regimen that on some days has kicked my ass but I have felt great as a result. I never thought I would commit to such a workout and I look forward to see how far I can push myself. Between the increased calories and the continued strength regiment, I plan to be unstoppable (fingers crossed and saying some prayers).

I often find myself looking at life using tunnel vision. You look in the mirror and only see the negatives not the positives. Life is a marathon, you don't get out of bed one morning and say I am going to run 26. 2 miles today. You work towards that start line and head to the finish line. I need to work on reminding myself I am a work in process but there is a lot of good there. We all have goals and there are many start lines to look forward to that eventually bring us to the finish line. Thank you my friends for your support! You get by with a little help from your friends!! 

Why Bother??

I dislike these vicious contraptions. And dislike could be putting it mildly. I have a strong dislike, in fact I HATE these ridiculous measuring tools. The magic box of numbers, I believe are a relative of satin. They are supposed to measure weight but they wreck havoc on your emotions!

I have been feeling good about myself lately so this morning before my workout, before the sun even rose, I decided to take a joy ride on this piece of equipment they call a scale. And the number didn't go down...it didn't stay the same...it went up! WHY???

Why is it going up? But more importantly, why did I give in to the taunting of the scale and jump on it? I was feeling cocky and thought yeah this is my day! Boy was I wrong!!

How can an electronic number make such an impact on your life? Why does that number mean so much to me? Why does it affect me so much?

In the last six weeks I have been feeling great, physically. I have been feeling strong and my GI track seems to be settling down (sorry for the TMI). I am hitting PRs in the gym and on my bike. Although my runs haven't been super fast, I have been happy with them and more importantly I haven't been in my head (negatively) while I run. I have made a commitment to my strength workouts, which has made a HUGE difference. And my clothes fit great...my size hasn't changed in three years! So WHY is the scale against me?

This morning I put on a dress I bought new this season. It is a size that I have been wearing for years. It

fits perfectly and is so comfortable. I looked in the mirror and I was happy with what I saw but then the scale laughed at me from the other side of the room. Who is in control here?

I record every food item I consume and I weigh and measure what I eat. Why do I bother? I should just eat the bagel sandwich every day. Or how about the Doritos that always looks so good? Or cake every day! The crazy thing is I don't have a desire to eat the Doritos every day, the bagel sandwich or cake. Not because of the scale just because I don't have an interest. I know I am not perfect but I don't think an occasional muffin or cookie should do me in! 

I know what many of you will say, don't worry about the scale. Keep doing what I am doing, use other things as my measuring tools. I want to agree with you but I also want to know what I am doing to make the scale go up instead of down? I think it might be time to hide the magical number box of hate for a while and try to figure this all out! I am not ready to give up. I can't commit to the "why bother" attitude or all HELL will break lose and we will have so much more to worry about. I have to figure this out and maybe some day I will have a better relationship with the calibrated balance!!

Keep Moving!!